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| From Adam |
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Dear All..... well lets see....if you guys/gals wanna to hear a story about how my life has changed and i feel so much happier well im sorry to say but that's not my story..... ive recently been out of the army....in the army many guys/gals dont let gays or even laugh at the thought of something gay.....they would give rubbish hurtful things about gay life and how disgusting it is....they dont say a lot of things but the looks say so much more then words can say....the look of disgust...the scecret talks behind your back....the words and things you know they say but you pretend to forget it or not be aware of it.....well that was army life for a 21 yr old..... right now im 23 and well things have gotten a little better.....ive made some great friends on the net and well i have to say im lucky to find one of two real people who dont discriminate for your personal preferences.....but well the thought of my family knowing it hurts.....my dad has a heart condition and well he found out that i was gay when i was in the army....he read an email or something from my computer...i know i know people always say that if you dont want anyone to know then dont show it....well being who i am i cant hide from this all the time ....sometimes people forget and well that one minute in life can change everything....the fillial son...the army boy! the man to come....well it all crumbles when you mention the word GAY....my parents knew that i was Gay while i was in the army but they've always thought that that was just *a FAZE* something he'll grow out of....tell your brother to try to change....yeah thats like asking to try to breathe other things then oxygen....... one morning when i got up from bed ..after using the morning bathroom i was hoping for a happy day since everyone in the family is around...but well my dad had to go and use my computer and see one of the saved file i had on my desktop.......my heart broke when he stared at me and the words he said= i thought you were through with all that?...you still have them stupid things on your computer!!!!....one second felt like my whole life change went before my eyes......then he left the room.....my mum came in surprise and seemingly not knowing what happened.....*the time will come i know*...since then my dad hasnt been speaking to me....the man ive known all my life who was more of a best friend just.....well he just stopped....the feelins i have inside me are aplenty and part of me feel utter shame and sadness.....i felt like a total dissapointment.....ive always read by others that ....(and they learn to love me for who i am or since then ive felt better)....but i know that sometimes being gay and comingout whether you want to all not doesnt always turn out like a fairytale..... i dont like being gay or straight....i am who i am and i hope that everyone person out there to hear me....*have hope* thats all i have in my heart right now.....hope that another day would be better.....that another day you wont feel like shit or someone not worth being loved or showed care for......even though im 22 i know that thats life and that as long as you have hope in yourself you will survive.....well my day has not come yet and well somedays are harder then the other.....sometimes you just want to end it but well.....you cant .....i sure know that i will hang on as long as i can..... to all those who had a better life coming out i really envy you.....to all those who life is as mixed up as mine gets all my hugs.....well ill write another story as my life start to go on....i wonder what would adam turn out in the near future....untill then you guys/gals take care....... |